Time

Its funny how my concept of time has changed since I had a child.

Time moves slower

…when I am around my daughter. When she is awake and aware, she grabs all of my attention. I do not need to try to be “in the moment” because there is not other place to be. The four weeks that she has been alive is full of moments that I vividly remember. Like last Thursday when I sat on our couch, feeding her at 5am, as the sun rose in NYC.

Time also moves faster

I cannot believe that it has already been four weeks since she was born. I almost cannot differentiate between last night, when I slept in my own bed, and when I was sleeping on the chair the four nights we were in the hospital. It is a little bit scary how fast time seems to be moving.

I am more aware of my own time

I want to be around my daughter as much as I can, so I feel more accountable than ever to spend my time wisely. Mainly that applies to work, where I am pushing myself to accomplish the most important tasks in a reasonable amount of time. Whereas before I did not feel anxious when I worked all day, I now feel the need to leave the office. I understand that my presence is what is essential for my daughter, and I am making better use of my time so that I can be around more.

Other people go back in time

New babies seem to enchant everyone around. Every day when I get back home from work, Lorraine and I take our daughter for a walk. People regularly stop us and tell us…about themselves. Usually they are reminiscing about their children and how great it was to raise them. The phrase “special time” is used regularly.

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Ultimately, it became clearer to me that time is the most valuable resource that I have in my life. And it is the only thing that my daughter needs from me right now. If I want to be a good father, then I need to spend time with my daughter. My life demands that I give more respect to time now, and I have found it to have a positive impact. As I am more thoughtful of how I spend my time, I am also more fulfilled by how that time is spent. And much of that time is now spent feeding, changing, and soothing a 4 week old girl.

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